Romanticized Revelation

A little while ago I had a horrible day. Everything was going wrong! And I was becoming sicker and sicker. That night I showered and got all ready for work, and at 9:30pm (a half hour before I needed to leave for work!) I get stuck on the toilet with a pounding heart. 'Because a sinus infection and dizzy head wasn't enough to deal with, let's throw in diarrhea at the last minute!' (insert evil laugh here)

I text my boyfriend, because that's the first thing I do when I'm getting panicky and feeling like I'm going to be sick. Text my boyfriend, or BriBear or daddy, or my sister, or sometimes I text everyone all at once because I'm desperate for (digitally typed) company! This time though, I text my boyfriend, who was at a Birthday party for our friend, and I got this in return,

"I'm here with you, just breathe"

'Just breathe' is a common response that I get from him. By now, after all the texts I've sent him in a panic, he knows that 'Just breathe' is a comfort. But I have never gotten an 'I'm here with you' before.

For just a minute, a profound warm feeling took over all the aches and pains and shakes. And even though the symptoms returned eventually, I had a thought..

I'm always wondering, or screaming, "WHY ME?!". Why in a world full of pedophiles and serial killers, am I the one who gets a sinus infection when I've already been dealing with a GI issue and a panic disorder for the last few years?

What if I am so unlucky health-wise, because I have been SO lucky in love.

Could that be it? Does anyone else vote that maybe that's why I'm so sick? In order to balance out all the great loves in my life, I need to be sick?

Maybe that's just it. And if I had to choose between the two, well, what's the point in being healthy and normal if you have no one to share it with, and no one to send you beautiful text messages when you need them the most?

(Deep down, frankly I believe I deserve both. But anxious, infected beggars with brilliant boyfriends..can't be choosers!)





HAPPY VALENTINES DAY, Love Princess Georgia