...to my Endo-free
abdomen!
Six months! That's half of an entire year! How insane is that? I mean really.
My little Bri Bear asked me tonight, it I could do what my sister is doing. She's just landed in Italy for a summer of English tutoring and growing as a woman, and she went all by herself! I answered, 'Heck no! But I'm like 10% closer to yes, then I was 6 months ago?' And I am. I am closer to EVERYTHING, then I was 6 months ago.
I am closer to a career, I am closer to my friends and family, I'm closer to starting a whole new life with the boy that I love! In the last 6 months I've stared a new (wonderful) job, I have left my house to hang out and go out and party and be productive more then I have over the last 5 years! And my boyfriend and I have moved in together!
(We've actually just moved into my dad's basement apartment. Lol which doesn't sound too impressive and grown up, I understand. But there was a time when moving 2 feet from my toilet seemed impossible, and now I've moved 2 whole flights of stairs away!)
It's not flying to, and living in a foreign language-speaking foreign country alone with none of the comforts I've depended on for the last few years...but this 6 month anniversary is still something to celebrate. Especially considering the fact that the Anxiety Monster is nowhere near this party!
I'm not naive enough to really let my guard down, but I still have yet to suffer a full-blown attack since surgery. I still have yet to ask for an Ativan refill! Suck on THAT, Mr. Monster.
I shal be celebrating with a half-price Starbucks Frapaccino, without the nagging worry over whether or not all that caffeine and sugar will send me screaming to the bathroom :)
Six months! That's half of an entire year! How insane is that? I mean really.
My little Bri Bear asked me tonight, it I could do what my sister is doing. She's just landed in Italy for a summer of English tutoring and growing as a woman, and she went all by herself! I answered, 'Heck no! But I'm like 10% closer to yes, then I was 6 months ago?' And I am. I am closer to EVERYTHING, then I was 6 months ago.
I am closer to a career, I am closer to my friends and family, I'm closer to starting a whole new life with the boy that I love! In the last 6 months I've stared a new (wonderful) job, I have left my house to hang out and go out and party and be productive more then I have over the last 5 years! And my boyfriend and I have moved in together!
(We've actually just moved into my dad's basement apartment. Lol which doesn't sound too impressive and grown up, I understand. But there was a time when moving 2 feet from my toilet seemed impossible, and now I've moved 2 whole flights of stairs away!)
It's not flying to, and living in a foreign language-speaking foreign country alone with none of the comforts I've depended on for the last few years...but this 6 month anniversary is still something to celebrate. Especially considering the fact that the Anxiety Monster is nowhere near this party!
I'm not naive enough to really let my guard down, but I still have yet to suffer a full-blown attack since surgery. I still have yet to ask for an Ativan refill! Suck on THAT, Mr. Monster.
I shal be celebrating with a half-price Starbucks Frapaccino, without the nagging worry over whether or not all that caffeine and sugar will send me screaming to the bathroom :)
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