There is always a lengthy agenda to attend to during town meetings in Princess Georgia's kingdom. Everyone discusses what flowers to plant in the main garden this season, what food will be served at the next grad ball, review the sizing laws for the carts in the town marketplace, and what new books will be added to the school library. This particular town meeting was different though, it was special for Princess Georgia.
A lady came up to Princess Georgia and asked if they could sit and talk. This lady wanted to tell the Princess that she wasn't alone. This lady had heard of the war Princess Georgia was engaged in with the Anxiety Monster, and wanted the Princess to know how strong and brave she thought she was. She also wanted the Princess to know that there were others in the kingdom who had been attacked by the Monster!
This came as a shock the Princess. She wasn't the only one under attack! This Monster didn't just terrorize small princess. When Princess Georgia was lucky enough to feel healthy and happy enough to go out and have fun with her friends, it was because the Anxiety Monther was off attacking someone else! Gardeners, bakers, bus drivers, teachers... The monster wasn't after just her.
But that doesn't mean she's not still all alone when the Monster finds her. When he discovers where she's hiding, it's just Princess Georgia and the Anxiety Monster. She has to fight him off all by herself, or at least escape to her favorite hiding spot, where she still has to wait all by herself.
When the current fight is over, and hiding is no longer necessary however, that's when it's nice to know there are others out there who have been fighting and hiding on their own, too.
I would never wish THIS on anyone. There are people in jail who don't deserve to suffer through what I am suffering through...no one DESERVES to suffer through what I am suffering through. But they do. Others do suffer, and it's a small comfort to know that I'm not alone. Not in this moment anyways. When my stomach stops rotting, and my bowels un-knot themselves, and my heart slows down, and my muscles unclench, and my lungs give me some air back...I get to think about the others who have to go through what do, and feel like I do. I'm thankful for them. I'm sad for them, but thankful and empowered by them.
My army may just be one, just me, but when I get a minute to retire my armor and stretch me legs (and get some fucking sleep), I also get to take comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in this minute. In this minute, there are others letting go, taking long deep breaths again, and thanking whatever god for some time off to just live.
In this moment, others townspeople are exclaiming; the more she fights and grapples with the Anxiety Monster, the more beautiful and confident Princess Georgia will become.
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